Have you ever tried letting go and lifting your troubles up to God? A lot of times we pray for what we want, and work even harder than we pray to make absolutely sure that things go our way. It is very much a part of my sinful nature to want to control absolutely everything, and it wasn’t until I was in a desperate situation that I even tried to give things up to God, even though I had heard that message many times. I want to share how God led us to our home—without which I could not afford to be a stay-at-home mom—and how He taught us that faith in Him is much more powerful than our own understanding.
First, we prayed for God to bring us to our new home.
Honestly, we were desperate to move. I was pregnant, our baby was coming soon, we could not afford childcare, and I wanted to be able to quit instead of taking an unpaid maternity leave that we could not afford. The one thing in our budget that would make the biggest difference was moving, so we decided that we had to do it, and fast. We searched and searched in the (very expensive) county where we lived so that my husband could be close to work, but everything was far too costly. Homes cost $400,000 or more, and there was nowhere to rent that was cheap enough for us to afford on one salary. So we prayed. And widened our search. And prayed some more. And widened our search even further.
Then, we lifted our troubles to God.
We were exhausted, panicked, and desperate for a place to live. The worry was making me ill, as I was now 8 1/2 months pregnant and having Braxton-Hicks contractions. If we didn’t find a home before my maternity leave started, we wouldn’t make it two months before being kicked to the curb. We were running out of time. I knew God gave us this baby, I knew that He put us in this situation for a reason, and I knew that He always fulfills His promises. That was when we decided to stop praying for a new home. Instead, we lifted our home search up to God and put it all in His hands. That’s right—in our most desperate hour, we stopped looking.
It changed everything.
At work the next day, out of the blue, my husband remembered that one of his coworkers lived in West Virginia—over an hour away! The housing is cheaper there, the property taxes are cheaper, and they lived quite comfortably even with a long commute. When my husband got home and told me about this, I was so excited! I went onto Zillow to look at prices, and I can’t even put into words the relief I felt that things were within our budget. Then, we got a phone call from a developer looking to sell a few brand new townhouses in a tiny West Virginia town within commuting distance. To this day I am not sure how he got my number, but God does amazing things when you stop trying to control your situation and instead lift it up to Him.
The townhouse was perfect, and we signed our contract with the developer within a week. We had to move out of our apartment by the first of the month, so we had absolutely no flexibility with our closing date or our move-in date… naturally, we soon learned that the house wasn’t going to be ready in time. The appraiser had made a mistake that was going to cost us even more precious time. In order for us to not make the labor and delivery ward our actual home for a few weeks, everything had to work out perfectly, and it wasn’t looking like it would. There were so many moving parts, and I was starting to panic again. But—if lifting everything up to God worked before—it would work again. So we stopped worrying, lifted it up to God, and all of the things that weren’t going according to our plan fell into place. We were moved in and comfortable just in time for my water to break. We couldn’t have planned it better ourselves!
And that’s it—that’s what He wanted us to learn. We can’t plan things better than He can. It does no good to worry, because He will make it work as long as you have faith and give everything up to Him. It isn’t easy to let go of control, especially when it seems like you are heading straight towards disaster. But trust Him—He knows what He is doing when we do not.
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart,
and do not lean on your own understanding.
In all your ways acknowledge him,
and he will make straight your paths.”
Proverbs 3: 5-6
“The Lord will fight for you; you need only to be still.” Exodus 14:14